The event referenced in the post happened a few years ago. Early this morning, I ran across notes in a journal entry. I was living in a different city at the time, and it was before my illness. I am a little taken back that I still struggle with this negative behavior from time to time. Why does judging others come so easily? I am far from perfect. I try to be more aware and stop myself, and this served as a refresher for me. Can anyone relate?
Summer 2014: Eek! My internal radar went off, and I am sure my external expression showed it. There was a woman at WalMart, smiling and proudly wearing what appeared to be a 5” headband as a skirt and a short tank top that was obviously made to fit a toddler. I was at the store shopping with my elderly mother, we were both mortified and couldn’t move far or fast enough across the store in our search for escape. Yep, I even paused in the fresh fruit section to post a comment on Facebook! I was disgusted. As if that wasn’t enough, guess who sashayed into line behind me when I wheeled into checkout? You guessed it!
I caught myself judging this woman, questioning her lack of public decency and modesty. I was thankful that my son was not with me. My poor mother was emotionally scarred. The list could go on.
I am embarrassed to admit, I have several stories like this. Times when I have jumped toward the negative and grasped a judgmental attitude like it was my right to do so.
As I was driving home, I was struck by the thought that I should love others. I am not to judge anyone, just love them as they are. Not one of us is perfect. No, not one. I recounted what I saw to my husband. He reminded me again that I should love others, not judge them. I am very sorry for passing judgment on this stranger. I am nowhere near perfect, and although I strive to be a better person, I constantly find areas where I can improve. I have made my share of mistakes, and I never felt the dirty look of God on me. He loves me no matter what I do. No matter what bad habits I have. As I reach out to Him, He guides me toward the path I should go, loving me the whole time.
I am reminded of this story:
John 8:1-11 (NIV)
1but Jesus went to the Mount of Olives.
2At dawn he appeared again in the temple courts, where all the people gathered around him, and he sat down to teach them. 3The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group 4and said to Jesus,
“Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. 5In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” 6They were using this question as a trap,in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
9At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
11“No one, sir,” she said.
“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”
I am put in my place. I will work on softening my heart. I will work on not judging others, and loving everyone. This will not be easy, but I am convicted.
In addition to not judging myself, as I wrote in my previous post, I am working on not judging others.
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